Sometimes I say things I think are cool or make sense but when I think about it later I want to hit my head against the wall because I feel like such an idiot. I don't know why random, idiotic things seem to jump out of my mouth all the time. They're not usually offensive things (although, I do that too, see previous post!) but just stupid, dorky things. Today as I was driving home from the store I thought of a really dumb thing I said yesterday. I was just about to beat myself up over it when I thought, "ya know what? oh well, so you're a dork! Embrace it!" The last couple of years have been very hard on me and on my self-esteem. But, I'm finally starting to feel better about me. Here are a few things I've learned:
* You can not MAKE people like you. Either they do or they don't. Not everyone will and that is ok.
* Pretending to be someone you're not (i.e. interests, appearances, hobbies) will not pay off. Eventually you will get tired trying to lead a life that's not really yours.
* Being single minded about friendships leaves you feeling lonely and feeling left out (at least this is true for me). If I'm always relying on the same group of friends for entertainment, I'm going to feel bad when I'm not invited which then leads to feelings of negative self worth. (why didn't they invite me? is it because I'm such a dork??)
* I'm learning to come out of my shell when it comes to initiating friendships. I am always scared to invite someone to lunch or out to dinner because I am afraid of rejection. But, I've realized...I am a good person. If someone doesn't want to have lunch with me, oh well. Their loss.
* Your self worth should not be based on how many lunch dates and girls night outs you're invited to.
* Your outer looks are nothing compared to your inner beauty. Or lack of inner beauty. Being loving and kind is far better than being a size six with gorgeous flowing hair.
* My family and friends love me for me! Messy house, stinky sweats, dorkiness and ALL!
* I am a daughter of God. Even if I feel that no one cares, he does. And I am worth something in his eyes. Not just something...everything!
Things are really starting to feel good. I am ok with me...something I haven't been able to say in a really long time. I am a dork. And...I'm ok with that! Dorks are really cool! If you know me, you know this is true! :)
(picture courtesy of Ian)
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Embrace your inner dork
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6 people not afraid to say something:
I agree 100%! Although I was a dork long before you joined the club! Not that I think that you're a dork...I hope that came out right. People are people. Thanks for your truly inspiring thought!! Finding success in yourself...no matter who you are is the hardest challenge everyone has!
You are so far from being a dork! Thank you for this post. I still have major issues with this. I think that's why I like all the high school movies (you know, where everyone realizes that the dork is actually a super cool person).
I was hoping you would tell us what dorky thing you said!
Amen, Angi! Although, I think everyone is a dork on some level. This post reminded me of a quote I heard recently about a young Cheroke asking his Master about happiness and sadness. His Master taught him that each of us has two wolves...one that is joy, peace, and grattitude. The other wolf is sadness, anger, inadequacy. The young Cherokee asked which one wins and his master replied, "The one you feed the most."
I'm glad you're feeding the wonderful Angi we all recognize!
Your post made me laugh! (Even though I don't think that I was supposed to) It made me think of all the dorky things that I do and I am still ok. Like you, I know that I need to be myself and people will accept that if they are my true friends. If they don't accept me for who I am.. I don't want to be with them anyway! By the way- I am always up for lunch! :)
What a grown up you are! And I never thought you were a dork. I always just want to be like you!
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