Whata weekend...

This was one of those weekends that made me lose myself in thought.

Friday my cousin April was married. I couldn't help but think of the last thirteen years of my life being spent with my best friend and husband. April and I are the same age and I guess I am lucky to have found my love early in my life. We were nineteen and crazy in love when we married. Nineteen. I look at my nieces at 18 and can't even imagine them married in the next year. What were we thinking? But, I can't complain. We survived growing up together and here we are 13 years and 4 kids later, still crazy in love.

Saturday we attended the temple to do sealings. It was kind of a crazy session but so peaceful and fulfilling at the same time. I couldn't help but think of families anxiously awaiting their names to be read and reuniting as they were sealed. Sadly, after leaving the temple on a spiritual high I received the news of my brothers mom's passing (my half brothers...we share a dad). I was in no way close to her and in actuality I kinda had to roll my eyes at lifestyle but she is the mother to my brothers. I was and am so hurt for them. I'm under the impression that maybe they weren't all on the best of terms at her passing. I can't imagine having to say goodbye to someone and not being able to say I'm sorry. Or, even I love you. That is why it is so important to say it everyday. It made me think of my grandma's passing 9 years ago. My cousin and her were in a tiff of some sort and not speaking to each other. I don't think my cousin ever really got over the fact that the last time see saw my grandma alive she was horrible to her. This life is so short there is no reason to treat those we love as horrible as we do sometimes. And, it's too short to hold a grudge. I personally am going to try harder to get over any ill feelings I might have toward the people in my life.