The begining of our journey

I dropped off some film yesterday that I've had kicking around for some time. I almost cried when I opened the pictures and found this...

This is Ian out front of primary children's hospital in the summer of 2003 and this is Ian the day he was diagnosed with autism. Thus, this is the day our journey began. I look at this picture, his snow white hair, his pure innocence and I long for those days back. As hard as it was then I never knew just how hard it would be. I never knew the hours I would spend on my knees in prayer. I never knew the hours I would spend cleaning up the messes he would make. I never knew that I would feel the pain that I have felt and I never knew the joy he would bring me. Isn't life funny that way? Aren't you glad we don't know what lies ahead of us? How many of us would want to go on if we knew? I am thankful for this journey but If I had known...

...If I had known I would do it anyway.