Not alone

It's interesting the way this world works. Or maybe I should say, the way Heavenly Father works. Yesterday I had myself worked into a frenzy over the up coming summer. This time of year is ALWAYS crazy and busy and I fill myself full of guilt for not being more involved in my children's school. I start stressing about summer, making a schedule, figuring out how to entertain my kids for 3 long months. Then add in the stress I feel about how on earth I'm going to handle Ian's tantrums and screaming for the summer. Yes, I know, I tend to stress about things that actually may turn out different that I think they will. It's a real problem with me. Anyway, I spent most of the day feeling like a failure of a mother and pretty much just a failure period. I've been lonely, and that creates many feelings of inadequacy. Yesterday afternoon, just as I was ready to call it quits I found a lovely package on my porch. Remember how I said I really wanted this?



Well, there it was, tied up with a little bow and a card that read this

I cried all afternoon not only because I was so touched my the book but because I was touched that someone loves me enough to buy it for me.

I don't know who it's from. What I do know is that it feels good to be loved and not so alone. Thank you secret gifter, thank you!