Like most moms, I spent the day yesterday with a perma-grin. School was starting. Today Ian was so excited he was awake at 4:30. He went back to sleep but when he woke up again he cried and cried for his bus. Putting him on the bus was exciting because he was so excited and it felt very natural probably because he'd gone to school for part of the summer. But something unexpected happened when I dropped the other two off. As I watched Emilia walk into the school I started crying. I cried when she went to kindergarten but I didn't expect to cry again for first grade. I fought back the tears and climbed into the van. Then I thought of Matthais in his new class at a new school and I started feeling very anxious. My babies! They are in someone else care! I have no control! I cannot be there for them. What if they get hurt or don't make friends? What if they can't find the bathroom? What if their teachers yell at them? I lost it. Yep, I expected to be jumping for joy today. Instead...I'm crying like a baby.
Monday, August 18, 2008
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2 people not afraid to say something:
O.K. so I'm totally jealous right now. The last few days have been crazy and I've been wishing our school was starting the same time as yours. But reading this makes me realize I will miss them and I better enjoy this last week. You're such a good mom!
Okay, the worst part is that I didn't ven flinch seeing J&J off on Monday, I actually felt kind of ripped off cuz it was early out. I might feel different next week though when Ky goes to preschool. You're such a good mom!
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