Life...or something like it

Some days life is really just a blur. Today the kids went back to school and after a crazy morning I came home, sat down and sobbed uncontrollably. I wasn't sad, frustrated, angry or any of the other emotions one might expect to come with tears. I think, for me it was just a release. The dam finally broke and the water just flowed. This summer was hard. Like so unbelievably H.A.R.D! I suffered from some pretty nasty depression and anxiety. Ian had some new and unwelcome behaviors. I lost my best friend this past year (not as in died, just gone) and I had some serious issues with self worth and self esteem. I felt alone. Thankfully I had a few people I love in my life to help spread a little sunshine on me but for the most part I felt pretty alone. That's all another story for another day though. One of the things that I realized this summer was how much I love this blog! It's been years since I've done any serious writing and I have no followers (although that's fine with me). I forgot how cathartic writing on this blog everyday was! It was a way for me to say what I wanted to say, in a safe environment, keep the memories of my family alive, and laugh at all of life's little curve balls. Yesterday I visited with my grandpa and as we were leaving he urged us all to start and keep a journal. I knew at that moment it was time to resurrect the blog! It was an urging I had had several times this summer and this was my second witness. So here I am, ready to keep it real, ready to give you an insight to our crazy life and ready to heal myself. If you're here say hi but if it's just me and my musings that's ok too. Be prepared for some catch up too... I want to record as much as I can so I will try to back post a little. I guess I'll need to update pictures too! I'm not sure if I even remember how so be patient with me and my work in progress. Let's get started!