Missing girls night out again

Seems like I can't go more often than not these days. Last month the girls had to change it from Friday to Saturday which happened to be my super-Saturday. I was gone from 8 in the morning until 6 that evening. There was no way a night out on the town was gonna fly. This month (today) is the night of our ward party and we can't switch GNO to Saturday. It's frustrating and sad for me just because my little group (minus me) sees each other quite often; they're in the same ward and often have spontaneous get-togethers. Since I'm no longer in the immediate area and tied down with kids...

So here's the thing that is bothering me today. I have no social life outside these monthly nights out. None. I don't do Bunco anymore, I don't have neighbors I talk to or lunch with friends on occasion. If I leave my house during the day it's to take care of kid issues, or food issues or because I just can't stand to be home any longer. These last two times of missing GNO have been spent at ward functions. You'd think that after two years of living here I would be excited about going and it would be some sort of consolation to missing a night out with friends. It's not. I almost guarantee I won't talk to anyone tonight unless I talk to them first. And more likely than not my night will be spent chasing Ian and Owen and I will miss out on any of the festivities taking place.

I'm drowning. I need a good night with some good feelings and good laughter. Maybe I'm just super-emotional from my lack of any meaningful sleep. Maybe I'll be wrong. A girl can only hope.