Day 2,"The Secret" and other ramblings

Day 2 of no facebook is proving to be harder than day one. I cannot believe how much of a habit I had formed checking facebook 20 + times a day. Already today I've walked down my stairs several times to check the computer. Sigh.

On another note...have you ever heard of "The Secret" or the law of attraction? Don't worry, I'm not going all New thought on you. Basically The Secret is that if you if you want something all you need to do is ask, believe, receive. It can be anything from a closer parking space to winning that trip to Rome; you just need to make it known to the universe, feel as though the action is on it's way, and be open to receiving it. Well, I seem to have an opposite law going on in my life. Maybe the law of un-attraction?? Remember last week when I posted this about  Ian using the toilet 90% of the time? I was hesitant to say that, to make it known to the universe and I had good reason to be. We have now regressed to about 50%. Why oh why when I think we've finally got a grip on things do they slip away?!?!? Can you see why I almost never write about the great things happening? All kidding aside I am completely frustrated with this change of events as is his teacher at school I'm sure. I sent him in a pull up today. All we can do is plug away right?

Speaking of toilet training, anyone know how long it takes to housebreak a puppy? I thought we had a good handle on that as well but just in the last few days we've had several accidents. Maybe I'm not cut out to be a parent or a dog owner. I mean how many living beings am I allowed to mess up??? Bigger Sigh.

My foot is still really bothering me. I'm really hesitant to go to the Dr. so he can refer me to a podiatrist so that he can send me to physical therapy so that I can do the same exercises I'm all ready doing thanks to the help from a physical therapist in my ward. There is part of me though that wonders if my self diagnosis is correct. I'm anxious to get moving again and to get this weight off. I'm doing ok with just diet but I am much more motivated when I am exercising. I also want to quit drinking diet coke. YIKES! That one is going to be hard. Good thing I'm not doing it right now cause if I quit drinking diet coke and facebook at the same time I'd really be a mess! I have several cans in the garage but once they are gone, I am done. Biggest Sigh. My few pleasures in life will soon be gone. But, I will be a better, stronger, healthier person because of it right? RIGHT????

p.s. Feedback is optional but greatly desired! Not having facebook has made me even more desperate for commentors on my blog so PLEASE, feel free to comment!

End to Facebook...

...for now. I just deactivated my account. Sister Beck's statement about mothers spending too much time on the computer and not nurturing their children really hit home. Friday I spent most of the day sitting in front of the computer. I think that I often get that way when I'm depressed... I have no focus, no motivation. I also know that when it comes to facebook it's not enough for me to just simply tell myself I won't get on or restrict myself. I have no self control. I had no choice but to deactivate it. Things will be a lot better because of it. Besides...They're worth it!

Millie's surgery

We got into the hand specialist first thing Tuesday morning and we had surgery scheduled for the next day. The surgery was a fairly simple procedure but it was something they needed to take care of. They were a little concerned that her finger was broken even though the x-rays looked good. Turns out it was not but there was just a flap of skin stuck under her nail that made her finger mimic a break. She had a deep laceration in her nail bed and they stitched it and the rest of her finger up. She was in good spirits and did a great job. The Dr. was 2 HOURS LATE and I was extremely annoyed. Who keeps a starving, bored 8 year old waiting for 2 HOURS?  I guess when you make the money that he does you get to hold all the strings. (ok, yes I would feel bad if there was some emergency that was holding him up...I just think they could have told me that so I wasn't so annoyed)

at the surgical center

before

after

I know it was nothing major and she was in and out of surgery but I think you always worry about your kids going under the knife. You just never know what side effects they might experience. Luckily Millie did amazing and even attended her first activity days activity later that afternoon! Now we have to leave the bandage on for 10 days then we'll head back to the Dr. for a final update.

Trip to the Zoo

On labor day, because we had nothing better to do, we headed to the zoo. My oh my! Since when does it cost a family $50 to be so crowded you hardly get to enjoy yourself? At least Ian didn't throw any tantrums. The zoo is much more manageable with the hubby in tow. Here are some of the highlights...

This gorilla was pretty interesting. It stood at the glass and stared at us. Ian was pretty impressed and was even talking about it the next day.

The line for seeing how you measure up to a gorilla was too long so we settled for the orangutan. Not quite the same.

Looks like we got a bunch of Prairie dogs!

Me and my cuties

Wonder what Owen is pointing at?

The traditional picture of drinking out of the lion's mouth

Zuri the baby elephant...pretty cute!

Feeling a little stressed

But I guess that's how it goes when you are a mom. I've had a lot on my mind and on my plate lately. The latest? Millie will be going in for surgery tomorrow. I know this surgery is not life threatening in any way but I always get uneasy when one of my babies goes under anesthesia. She will be fine. I will be fine. In the meantime I need to take care of all the logistics like babysitting for Owen and taking the day off and getting everyone to school. I also had to shuffle Dr. appointments and get prescriptions filled. Tomorrow is also Owen's first day of preschool. Hopefully I'll be able to drop him off. There are some good things happening at our house though! I haven't dared post about this in fear of jinxing myself but Ian is 90% potty trained! He still has the occasional pee accident but we have not had a poop accident in a very long time. This is fabulous news for us and we hope that it continues! He seems to be doing really well at his new school too! His behavior has improved as well although we still see breakthroughs in the screaming and tantrums. I'll take any improvement we get. I'm still trying to pull myself together and get my life organized again. I honestly feel like a chicken with my head cut off. I don't know which direction I am going in. Before the kids went back to school I had Adam give me a blessing. I was promised that I would be able to regain control (not in those words exactly) and I know I will. Baby steps. For now I'm going to pop open a diet coke and take 5 minutes for myself before everyone gets home.

Millie's Baptism

I'm so proud of my beautiful daughter and her choice to be baptized. She had been looking forward to this day for as long as I can remember. She looked so beautiful in her white dress.

We had a great turn out even though only half of the family showed up. I guess that's what happens when everyone starts getting older. They have their own life and their own things to do. We had to do a few last minute changes with the program but it turned out really nice. After we had a great lunch at our house.

Millie's Pinkie

Millie and Owen headed out for a bike ride Friday night and only after a few minutes Millie came back crying and bleeding. She had crashed into a fence and ripped her fingernail out of her finger. Adam told me not to take her in because there was nothing they could do about it. I ran her to a neighbor who is a nurse who confirmed so we just bandaged her up and called it good.

Turns out they were wrong. I took her to the Urgent Care today (for a sore throat) and he told me she needs to go into a hand specialist. Unless we don't care if she ever grows a nail again she needs to have the nail bed put back into the finger. Ugh. I knew I should have followed my motherly instincts that night and just taken her to the doctor. Now it will be a bigger deal than it would have originally and will probably cause her more pain. And...It may not even work.